Broken heart

Who I used to be is not the same guy now. People think I’m happy and cheerful but deep down something is killing me. While I was on my bad days people used to confront me by giving some useless advice that I never want. To be honest some of them were life changing too. But, how can I make one understand what’s going through my mind when I, the one who’s dealing with this vivid thoughts can’t get a hold on those roots. I’m and I was very sad today. Tried killing myself and I’m aware of what I’ll be leaving behind this when I slay off myself. But, the truth is sometimes it’s get too damn hectic for me to handle this stuff. I can’t control my thoughts. I get devoured in my own anger and thoughts. I caged myself in such a unhealthy lifestyle that I can’t get rid of now. I’m dead inside and out right now. People think I’m fucking insane and I’m mad to be brutally honest. But, the truth is their reaction leads to my action which is not fucking understandable for them. I’m BROKEN and will be FORGOTTEN soon. I wish best for everyone.